visual slash audio crack

currently listening to: majik, 10-20

currently craving: a vacation alone :)

currently, currently: inhaled too much cologne...

you know what i thought of today! the more time i spend by myself, the happier i am! i mean it. i noticed that i allow people to affect me negatively...i know i allow it. i just can't figure out how to stop it. and until i do, spending time alone, with myself, is the happiest remedy. i really had a great day! browsing art catalogues online, sifting through my own work, documenting life, rearranging my room. either i'm pathetic, or i'm happy. i'll choose to say "i'm happy."

i also think that i like being alone in other ways. i can not tell you how much better i feel now that i've allowed myself to be free of relationships with men. either this is a hiatus, or i am actually maturing, its too soon to say. i mean, being able to walk around school, go out at night, day to day activities, without having to wonder if i will meet someone, or if i am presenting myself the right way. maybe it just took me this long to figure out what normal life is like, who knows. what i do know, is that i am going to travel as soon as i graduate, and not having a deadline of going back to school, or a man friend to miss puts me at ease. i like this alone thing. although this isn't entirely accurate, i like this drawing nonetheless :)

i love & spend most of my time online frequenting design blogs from some pretty respected people out there. this site, ISO50, a blog by artist scott hansen provided some GREAT ideas for an artist stuck in a creative rut. this guy interviewed 52 designers around the world, and posted their answers. trust the advice from the best :}

i have found one of my FAVORITE new blogs. music. art. design. music. movies. music. oh man. in need of a new wallpaper? kitsune noir has legit artists designing new ones erry wednesday; its called "The Desktop Wallpaper Project." here, you can find (21 pages so far, i checked) one suitable for any [design-savvy] desktop :) here are a few screenshots of some of my fav's:

ready for some visual slash audio crack? holy #$%!! you have to CHECK THIS OUT!!! the director used over 400 painted blocks, black light, and 4085 photographs in stop-motion to create one of the coolest videos, for one of the coolest sounds i have ever heard. if you're into psycho-electronic music with a beat that will break glass, check out 'nobody beats the drum; grindin.' you will NOT be disappointed. insanity. i can't get over this...

ke rn

currently listening to: sumiregusa, enya

currently craving: a coffee date

currently, currently: hot laptop on my legs

so i found this site, and somehow i have wasted many many nights searching through the archives and creating my fantasy wardrobe. here is one i made. i feel 12 again....but with more expensive clothes.

i also found some jewelry that i found hilarious. enjoy. and someone buy this for me:

i was browsing a favorite design blog and found an image i loved. i've been trying to create designs using colored smoke and incorporating dancers/figures into the image similar to this image [although this far surpasses mine.] little did i know, this band is brilliant!!! delphic, an alternative dance/electronic band from the UK released an album very recently (2009, and singles in 2010) that are worth checking out. loveee euro bands.

and i really like this light sculpture by artist james clar & associates, who is now working out of Dubai. this piece is interesting because it speaks of the dynamics of relationships. there are 9 ballasts that hang from the ceiling (device that maintains the current in a circuit at a constant value by varying its resistance), with wires that support and provide electricity to the fluorescent bulbs. i can't tell if it is commenting on the fact that other people are there to provide a constant flow of support for "me," or if "me" is the most important contender in "you and me."

interestingggg....

please give us more hype

currently listening to: mouthful of diamonds, phantogram

currently craving: juice

currently, currently: messy hair

yesterday was my last first day of classes. i still don't think i get it. i've been rushing to get through school my entire life, and this semester i'm sure will be no different, but i want to remember the last semester of college as the best part. i have my work cut out for me...printmaking, digital imaging, web design, and senior sem. t-minus one month until someone finds me frothing at the mouth on the ground in my studio. here's to graduating!

took a trip to visit kyle at stout last weekend and had the best time :) :) his room perfectly matches his personality, as well as his friends there. the campus is in a college town, with not much else going on but we definitely found fun things to keep us occupied. all i have to say "I LOVE GARBAGEEE!" i can get that.

i saw this and thought it was fantastic...this site is great.

lately, i've been obsessing over post-it art. artist marc johns is no exception. these are witty, and flat out hilarious

someday

i am sharing with you some of the places i am going to travel!! notice how i said "going to." although i may not know when, or possibly how i could ever afford to go there, i will find a way :)

first on the list, thessaloniki. apart from its sweet name, its far away from athens, and i don't need touristy. i mean one, its greece, and two, check out this hotel:

next, i want to stay in a quaint little town in the uk. i would love to wander the grounds of the bibury court hotel and enjoy the meadow and explore the castle-cottage ALL DAY.

loveLoveLOVE to travel !

musikk

currently listening to: broke my eyes, donkeyboy

currently craving: that smell

currently, currently: excited to dream tonight

ok do i have some music for you...

first off, donkeyboy's "caught in a life" album is fantastic. i am falling for the nord's :) you are going to watch their "ambitions" video.

nexxxt, passion pit's "the reeling" is obviously great, but did you know their video was filmed in brooklyn RIGHT where i lived?? there is a screen shot of the light sculpture under the bridge i used to walk under :)

and wave machines "the greatest escape we ever made" is probably one of "the coolest music videos i've ever seen."

and i may have saved the best for last!!! french navy is quite possibly one of the most romantic music videos i've ever seen. i was even reluctant to share this, because of how badly i want this to be my story, do not steal! this e n t i r e video will happen, for me. i love it so much.

and so, i hate to kiss and tell, but my love affair with music is hard to keep quiet. here's to love.

you might try these

currently listening to: stillness is the move, dirty projectors

currently craving: a good night out

currently, currently: watching conspiracy theory with kp

so so so many links i want to share with you all!!! ahh the excitement i get from all the design blogs i frequent!! here are only a few of the wondrous links i have discovered.

this link has some absolutely hilarious 'core-toon's' ... the first of which is amazing, because of how true it is. gd favors....if i had a dollar for every one i gave, i would be a paid designer. lol

"teux deux"

basically a minimalist design-y application for a to-do list.

i am so using this!

watch the simple, comical how-to video here.

how funny, i discovered a site that quickly and efficiently erases all of your social networking sites, so you can have your actual life back....

what can i say, it made me smile :)

here.

ok how ironic...last time i disclosed to you that i keep samples of things

(possibly air) in jars, documenting specific and notable moments in my life, and VOILA!!

this site is EXACTLY THAT!!!! ONLINE!! it is a website (actually a book) where you can enter in your own....i did ;)

aaaaand....an exquisite fireplace, to hold you off till next time.

that is all for today!

a new list

a new year, a new set of lists. i make resolutions not to be this, to try and improve that, to create this new mindset, and leave that one behind. whether or not i achieve them, i end up being a different person each year from particular experiences, new people, and just growing up. i loved who i was last year, and i know that God has so much in store for me this time around, i just need to live up to his dreams for me, which are so much INCREDIBLY more than my own, feeble, tame aspirations.

as far as schooling goes, i have less than 5 months left...forever. i still can't grasp what it means for me, not you, or a roommate, or a friend. i just want to make the most of EVERYTHING, and literally gather up the air and keep it in jars. 'this jar is from the last-first day of classes' and 'this one was from the first night i had the confidence i needed' and 'this one is from the day i realized i really don't know anything.' i actually do things like this, so don't be surprised if i have a collection going already...

i deleted my facebook a few days ago, and the weirdest sensations accompany leaving it behind in 2009. it got to be too much, and 'addiction' would be an appropriate noun to describe it for me. "the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming." i put too much of myself out for the world to see, and abuse, and do with as they please. am i living for them? should i be on a schedule for everyone else, always available, whenever they want me? am i exposing parts of me that were never meant to be shared? did i share too much of my favorite memories online, and become disappointed when others didn't find them that interesting? was i waiting on a few people, constantly throughout the years, saddened by them not talking to me, or disappointed when they weren't online? i just can't live like that. technology shouldn't haunt me like it does, and i shouldn't be so dependent on what it 'does' for me (like it ever did much). i can't say i feel the freedom like i want to, but its the first step in regaining myself.

lately. ugh. i was so tired of being seen as a plan b, and i realized i was not being respected. i just know who i am, and i know i have so much love to give. when my love is seen as an option, something to use whenever someone felt like it, and not tended to and returned, that was when i knew, after a long time hoping and waiting and thinking i must have been mistaken, that it was about time i took care of it myself, and not on the whim of some other person. my love is valuable.

well, i'm not dying, and i have a wonderful family, and a promising future. i have been blessed well beyond what i deserve. i don't want to use this blog as a way to blame people, or to put anything or anyone down, i just think that being able to vent and piece things together and type out what i have jumbled up and complicated in my mind can't be a bad thing.

to end things on a positive note, some of my favorite things!!! :

my perfect bed :)

my perfect room :) !

my perfect view!!